Over time, I’ve come to understand that what shapes our outer lives is often rooted in our inner world — the patterns, beliefs, and protective strategies we carry, often without even realising it. Through inner work, conscious writing and reflection, we can begin to uncover these layers, reconnect with our truth, and create a life that feels aligned, meaningful, and whole.

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Here, I offer a space for reflection, insight, and guidance—drawing on what I’ve learned through both lived experience and study. My hope is to encourage your journey of self-discovery, clarity, and emotional wellbeing, inviting you to find your own voice, sense of groundedness, and joy wherever you are in your life's journey.

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I’ve learned that our emotional and physical wellbeing is deeply influenced by the people around us, the environments we're in and how safe we feel to be fully ourselves. When that sense of safety is missing, we can lose touch with our needs, desires, and authentic voice. Rebuilding that connection—first with myself—opened the door to greater self-awareness, stronger boundaries, and a clearer understanding of my core values.

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Looking back, the turning point began in my early forties. At 41, I bought my first laptop, driven by a desperate determination to understand what was happening in my body and how I might begin to heal from the chronic health problems that started in my twenties. By 43, there was some improvement in the fibromyalgia pain, but the fatigue, IBS, and insomnia still continued. Adding to this came the onset of pre-menopausal symptoms, bringing another layer of discomfort and stress. I was exhausted by it all and needed to understand what was happening in my body and how I could recover. Having lost faith in conventional doctors, with little money to spend on holistic medicine, my only option was to continue to learn what I could to help myself.

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Continuing my search for answers, I delved into articles, books, and online health experts, while making dietary changes and experimenting with various supplements. I noticed some improvements, but there wasn’t a huge difference. At the same time, I started feeling a quiet pull toward something I didn't yet understand. What started as a search for physical healing slowly opened into a deeper exploration of myself. The process felt uncertain and at times uncomfortable, but it also felt unmistakably right, as though life itself was guiding me toward what I needed to find.
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I didn’t realise it then, but I was in the early stages of ‘waking up.’ On the surface, though, I was still doing everything I could to control outcomes—to hold onto what felt normal, expected, and familiar. Living in the unknown felt too unsettling, so I micromanaged my life, trying to stay one step ahead of any problems to maintain a sense of order. What I couldn’t see at the time was that in clinging so tightly to control, I was actually undermining my own healing and keeping the same painful cycles alive.​

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What began to shift was my relationship with my emotions. Instead of suppressing, dismissing, or rejecting them—as I had done for so long—I slowly learned to feel them. I started to sit with the discomfort rather than run from it, push it down, or minimise it. Over time, I began to notice emotions not just as passing thoughts or reactions, but as energy moving through my body—sensations that could rise, shift, and eventually release when I stopped holding them back. I uncovered emotional blockages I had been unconsciously carrying for years and decades—layers of tension and heaviness that had quietly weighed me down.

As uncomfortable as this was, releasing what I had been holding created space for insight: I began to see that each emotion carried a message of it's own, and in allowing myself to feel them fully, I started to understand myself more deeply.
 

Learning to trust my intuition and gradually having the courage to live in the unknown felt very different from how I was used to living. It was unfamiliar and disorienting at first—like walking through thick fog. Some days felt confusing, heavy, or uncertain, while other days I felt more connected, steady, and clear. Over time, the layers of conditioning that once convinced me I had to be a certain way to be accepted or okay began to strip away, and what slowly emerged were parts of myself I had rejected, suppressed, or believed were wrong—parts that needed acceptance and reintegration.

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In my search for guidance to make sense of these inner shifts, I discovered the teachings of Eckhart Tolle, whose words deeply resonated with me at the time, because they offered new perspectives on living in the present moment, spiritual growth and self-awareness. I started to recognise just how much I’d been living in my mind—replaying thoughts, analysing everything, and trying to figure it all out mentally.

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As I began learning how to quiet my mind through daily practice, I noticed a stillness beneath the surface noise. It was very brief at first and took a lot of deliberate focus but felt deeply intuitive, steady, and grounding—as if something in me already knew how to return to this quieter place. With continued practice, I began to notice that I wasn’t at the mercy of every thought that passed through my mind—that I could choose to observe them as they came and went, without attaching to them or creating mind-made stories. This awareness allowed me to see thoughts more like passing clouds—sometimes fast, sometimes slow; heavy and overcast one moment, light or beautiful the next.

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This opened the door to a quieter mind and a more grounded sense of self—more energy, better sleep, and a steadier connection to my own needs and inner clarity.
 

Now, at 60, I’ve learned a lot about what it means to live in a way that supports—not undermines—my wellbeing.

​I’ve come to understand that when we go against what we truly need or value, it creates an inner friction that can show up in all kinds of ways—emotionally, mentally, or physically. The more I pay attention, the more I see how small, daily choices either bring me closer to myself or pull me further away.

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I continue to learn, unlearn, and deepen my understanding of what it means to live in a way that feels true, connected, and real—One that stays true to my values, gives space to what matters most, and seeks to understand my full experience as a human-being.​​

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If any part of this resonates with you, I welcome you to explore your own path with curiosity, compassion, and openness.

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“You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are.” —Eckhart Tolle